The Ice inches inward. The Fire of my youth squandered in search of a forgotten Truth. I am Alone. My Soul knows many others. It gives them more of its Time then it does me. I'm two things. The Driver. The Vehicle. The Fury I possess couldn't possibly have been built up within just one Lifetime. Should I raise the Walls, Sever the Chains? Allow my body to move, without Strings?

I bury myself in my Shame. Lost in the depth of my Guilt. I don a mask. I fade into Gray. All that's left; Is meant to stay. The Pain in my Words; Wrench a Tear; But all i know; Are the Depths of my Fear.

All I've ever known. Ever sought after. Ever tried to commit to. Everything. Nothing. There's no difference between my Darkness and my Light. Regardless. I allow Fear to keep me from either Path. I subdue myself. I hold myself down. Every so often, I find another who is so Great, that I can even hold myself down in their Name. To know that no matter how much of myself I give to them. They'll never fully Use me. The way i WANT to be Used. I'm the Sword. A Weapon without a Wielder. I'm useless. I Rot and Rust and collect Dust.

Life is not worth living for Life itself. To survive solely to survive, is pointless. A meaningless Existence, is no Existence at all. My purpose awaits me. I yearn for my Life. For far too long; Have I been at the Edge of my Knife. I'm done with the games. I have a Goal. A Purpose. I have a Lover. Lies or not. I refuse to allow a single Doubt to stop me from following my Path. The Path I set before myself. I have someone special in Mind. I think of her, all the Time. Nothing will stop me. No one will stop me. Nothing CAN stop me. I AM Willpower. I'm the wind beneath the Dragon's Wings. I'm the Glare of the Sun. I will not, CANNOT, be Denied. I'll Ravage this World. None shall know my Name but One. None shall live without the touch of my Love. My Life. My Magic.

I Retire to my Darkness. Twisted Decay. A state of Rotting Atrophy. I'll have my Day soon enough. Until then. I Grow.